Tonight after breathing in silence I shall speak again. I shall express everything again or else I will die. I will not repress the sadness, the hurt and the love I am feeling. There is so much to show to the world, so much life to share, so much love, and so many people to inspire, and so many people I shall care about. Today I shall breathe again.
Tonight I will no longer wish to be heard, I need not care if it doesn’t reach him, all I want to do now is to touch other people’s lives through the gifts I have, to somehow make a difference through my words.
Tonight I will write again to immortalize the days and the moments I have lived life. I have loved life.
I am again drowning in sorrow, feeling trapped into a jar slowly the sands of time as gray as the sky fill up the empty void suffocating me. I feel my heart being held in a palm, slowly the grip grows tighter and tighter until the blood gushes out through my eyes. I toss and turn to breathe but the grasp is strong, like a greedy animal enveloping me. Eating me up, and I struggle to survive. But all the efforts to live drained me until I stopped. Frozen. I stare at nothingness, the feeling of abandonment suddenly touches my soul as cold as the frozen river in his heart; I die over and over again.
Reverberating moments of bliss and sorrow gush through my shore, leaving salty memoirs. Death revisiting. History becomes today, yesterday becomes tomorrow. Tomorrow disappears. Stranded, everything stops the pain vivifies, marring your weak body, bones become ashes and fire becomes water, and you drift, smitten by the torture of your own heart beat broken down to pieces. Like a broken mirror your pain duplicated.
Revisited long forgotten feelings mirrored in my eyes. Two balls of gloss shedding pebbles of despair creating an altar of rock. Cold and stiff, I have become numb and stiff once again.
Tonight I shall speak of my undying love and devotion to the man who taught me to live and have showed me that we ca Find Love in Any Form. But today I am trying to move on further, to love a level higher, to learn what unconditional love really is. Loving from far away, hoping, waiting yet holding peace to grant your one true love the space to find his authenticity. Love, be it unrequited but not saying a word, only, loving still. Not hurting from waiting, just living in loving while waiting.
Tonight I shall try to control myself from suffocating my one true love, loving unselfishly. Just hoping for the best, hoping that the space I have given him will provide him the pathway back Home to Me.
3:57 am
1/4/5
Tonight I will no longer wish to be heard, I need not care if it doesn’t reach him, all I want to do now is to touch other people’s lives through the gifts I have, to somehow make a difference through my words.
Tonight I will write again to immortalize the days and the moments I have lived life. I have loved life.
I am again drowning in sorrow, feeling trapped into a jar slowly the sands of time as gray as the sky fill up the empty void suffocating me. I feel my heart being held in a palm, slowly the grip grows tighter and tighter until the blood gushes out through my eyes. I toss and turn to breathe but the grasp is strong, like a greedy animal enveloping me. Eating me up, and I struggle to survive. But all the efforts to live drained me until I stopped. Frozen. I stare at nothingness, the feeling of abandonment suddenly touches my soul as cold as the frozen river in his heart; I die over and over again.
Reverberating moments of bliss and sorrow gush through my shore, leaving salty memoirs. Death revisiting. History becomes today, yesterday becomes tomorrow. Tomorrow disappears. Stranded, everything stops the pain vivifies, marring your weak body, bones become ashes and fire becomes water, and you drift, smitten by the torture of your own heart beat broken down to pieces. Like a broken mirror your pain duplicated.
Revisited long forgotten feelings mirrored in my eyes. Two balls of gloss shedding pebbles of despair creating an altar of rock. Cold and stiff, I have become numb and stiff once again.
Tonight I shall speak of my undying love and devotion to the man who taught me to live and have showed me that we ca Find Love in Any Form. But today I am trying to move on further, to love a level higher, to learn what unconditional love really is. Loving from far away, hoping, waiting yet holding peace to grant your one true love the space to find his authenticity. Love, be it unrequited but not saying a word, only, loving still. Not hurting from waiting, just living in loving while waiting.
Tonight I shall try to control myself from suffocating my one true love, loving unselfishly. Just hoping for the best, hoping that the space I have given him will provide him the pathway back Home to Me.
3:57 am
1/4/5
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