today we watched the movie hero. because dr. co wanted us learn more about the period of the warring states and the emperor of Qin Emperor Shih huang... o well... like you care...
anyway last night i opened pom's live journal and i got so devastated by the fact that i found out too many things about him that i should have known or he should have told me decades ago... and now i feel like he's a total stranger, that i too am a total stranger. and i hate it.
it shocked me that he used to write poems and that he kept a journal... he should have told me that, because he knows that im intrested about those kinds of things. especially when its about him. right? i hate it! i hate it!
and i hate the fact that i haven't seen him for almost a week now. and we have no communication... why? i don't know or i just don't wanna understand! argh! i hate the fact that because i was so full of emotions earlier this morning i was forced to write down my thoughts... and guess what?! i sounded so pathetic. but duh?! i was just being honest!
i'm being paranoid again. i'm thinking that maybe he doesn't love me anymore... yeah... maybe. i'm scared! i don't wanna lose him... not yet...
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