i've realizd that the hardest part is when you don't get any support from your family...
i feel sad standing in the middle of a crossroad, not knowing which way to go... is it to the path where your family would be happy since it is their dream that you be this person, but you realize taht this person they want you to be isn't you. and from a far you see that their vision is not the same as yours. of course its not the same, how can it be the same if what you want isn't what they wish you'd be.
it's so depressing to know that your decision would disappoint them, since you can't fulfill thier dreams... all i can say is that i am sorry, for i can not be that person, i am not that person you want me to be.
this year has been a struggle, and for a while i tried to forget who i really am because i was trying to blend with them. i tried, but you know, i get tired of trying too. especially now taht i know what i want. i hope you can read this. i hope you know how sorry i am for turning my back on your dream.
it was my choice, yes it was, but sometimes people make the wrong decisions too, right? like what you said before, life is like a math problem, you under go alot of trials and errors, but in the end with the right motive and right drive you'd arive at the desired outcome right? then why don't you understand? why?
i want to move on further, i want to swim in my real world, i know, you always say that... walang madali sa buhay... i know that... but you can lighten up the burden by finding something that doenst feel like work right?
it is hard, it will be hard, it will be a new battle for me, it will be another struggle, but this time i will be fighting for what i really want, and there would be no room for excuses and mediocracy anymore... and all i ask is for you to understand... and for you to give your blessing, and support perhaps...
i love all of you, and it really hurts me that i am about to disappoint all of you, once again... i really am sorry, i don't know what to do anymore.. but just in case... i think i'd be willing to sacrifice my happiness in exchange for yours... i love you all... i hope it reaches you... and im sorry again... lets talk soon... please....
i feel sad standing in the middle of a crossroad, not knowing which way to go... is it to the path where your family would be happy since it is their dream that you be this person, but you realize taht this person they want you to be isn't you. and from a far you see that their vision is not the same as yours. of course its not the same, how can it be the same if what you want isn't what they wish you'd be.
it's so depressing to know that your decision would disappoint them, since you can't fulfill thier dreams... all i can say is that i am sorry, for i can not be that person, i am not that person you want me to be.
this year has been a struggle, and for a while i tried to forget who i really am because i was trying to blend with them. i tried, but you know, i get tired of trying too. especially now taht i know what i want. i hope you can read this. i hope you know how sorry i am for turning my back on your dream.
it was my choice, yes it was, but sometimes people make the wrong decisions too, right? like what you said before, life is like a math problem, you under go alot of trials and errors, but in the end with the right motive and right drive you'd arive at the desired outcome right? then why don't you understand? why?
i want to move on further, i want to swim in my real world, i know, you always say that... walang madali sa buhay... i know that... but you can lighten up the burden by finding something that doenst feel like work right?
it is hard, it will be hard, it will be a new battle for me, it will be another struggle, but this time i will be fighting for what i really want, and there would be no room for excuses and mediocracy anymore... and all i ask is for you to understand... and for you to give your blessing, and support perhaps...
i love all of you, and it really hurts me that i am about to disappoint all of you, once again... i really am sorry, i don't know what to do anymore.. but just in case... i think i'd be willing to sacrifice my happiness in exchange for yours... i love you all... i hope it reaches you... and im sorry again... lets talk soon... please....
1 comment:
i cant seem to comment on your entry. anyway, na.. all things will fall into place. you have discerned well.. i reiterate.let it not be for them.let it be for you its your life anyway. you are the master of you fate.. the captain of your soul.. so be it. entrust it to HIM and no one else. MOVE ON to reach your star.. God has been there. the 1 year in law school was worth so much! i love you =) never ever lose that childhood enthusiasm! lets grow young once again! in the worlds where God will lead us. dancing to unknown tunes.. singing crazy.celebrating life!! everything will unfold in its time and everything will fall into place!
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